June 08, 2006
Almost Back To Normal
One
of the hardest lessons to learn in life is that sometimes even if you're not the one who made the mistake, you end up getting punished. It's totally unfair but even though you rail at the injustice of it all, there's really nothing you can do if a person chooses to shut you out of his life totally.
Sure, you can listen to your friends who tell you that he's not worth it; that he's just a boy; that he needs to grow up. And you can listen to your rational self telling you that it was going to end in 2 months anyway; that it would have taken a miracle to last any longer; that on so many levels it just didn't work.
But honestly, none of that helps. Because for some reason even though you knew that there was a deadline looming on the horizon, even though the writing was all over the wall in ten-foot high letters, you still wanted it to last as long as possible. And gradually die a natural death, not as prematurely as it did. Because for some reason, you were genuinely happy.
What's a girl to do? Nothing but pick herself up, dust herself off, allow herself a couple of good cries and get back into the groove. All too easy to say, but way tougher to implement and execute. It's times like these that you realise, sometimes you really just want your mommy.
Posted by scrabbyfoo at June 8, 2006 12:01 PMHang in there...it'll get better, lame as that sounds...
And there's always us to keep you occupied! =)
Posted by: Nat at June 8, 2006 07:32 PMhey may, remember what you told me?
"Thanks for nothing, dipshit!"
=)That never fails to put a smile on my face.
*hug*
as my mommy always says, "there are so many other fishes in the pond."
we're like, "mom, it's ocean!!!"
chin up, sweetie.