December 29, 2006
The Pursuit of Happiness
I'm
not sure.
I'm glad things are out in the open. I'm glad we all know what's going on. I don't know how things will turn out, but I've changed the equation. And maybe that's all that was needed. (And if you're reading this, which I suspect you are, I don't know what to say that doesn't sound trite except that it hurts for me too.)
I wonder why it's so hard to find happiness. I hear all these sad stories from all perspectives and it's getting tougher to not be cynical. I'd rather be alone than have stuff like that happen to me. And yet I know chances are that they will, if I stay on this road.
Maybe not all of us get the happy fairy-tale ending (and those who do shouldn't be taking things for granted). Maybe we find happiness in other ways: in family and friends who love us and support us; in being grateful for the little things in life; in seeing the beauty in nature; in being physically and mentally (and sometimes financially) able to do what we want.
And so I say, "Screw it. Life's short enough. Why waste time being unhappy?" If something makes me happy and if I am fully cognizant of all the consequences and repercussions of my actions, why shouldn't I go ahead and do it? And once something makes me unhappy (enough), I should get rid of it.
I think these two lines really sum up my philosophy (and yes I realise I'm misquoting the song here):
"就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的
天地辽阔相遇多难的"
I can't tell the future but I can see the here and now. I know what I want, even if it's not good for me, and I know what I should want. The question is, do you?
P.S.: There are really only 2 "you"s that this is addressed to. The rest of you, thank you for being here. I'm not quite there yet, but I'm getting to it.
Posted by scrabbyfoo at December 29, 2006 04:10 PM